It’s easy to feel alone when I’m homeschooling my kids. I read about homeschoolers and meet bloggers who homeschool, but that’s not the same as sitting down “live” with another person who is walking this same path.
And my pride makes me feel more alone at times. Because it’s easy to let my pride keep me from reaching out to others who could encourage me and share with me when I’m wondering if I’m really cut out for this job. My pride keeps me from admitting to my general friends and acquaintainces — and sometimes my family too — that…
…I don’t “have it all together”;
…that sometimes I want to quit;
…that sometimes I wonder if my kids will appreciate being homeschooled;
…that sometimes I lose my patience, get frustrated, or just have no desire to start school in the morning.
…that although I know that I want to (and feel called to) homeschool my kids through high school, I have no idea what that will look like.
And when I can’t admit these things to those around me, I feel alone. I feel like I have the weight of the world on my shoulders. And I wonder if I can keep going.
And then God intervenes.
Within our first month here, I attended a Seminary Wives Tea on campus. While there, the wife of the Seminary President spoke to us women and mentioned that she homeschooled her children! I sought her out after the tea and gained encouragement from her since she was further along in the homeschooling journey. And, as I was fixing myself some tea, I began talking with another seminary student who had been homeschooled! It was wonderful to be able to talk with someone who had been on “the other side” of homeschooling, and who actually enjoyed it!
Then, after being here for a semester, I began to feel the need for a friend who would understand where I was in life. Preferably someone around my same age with kids around the same age as my kids. Someone that I could share with and grow with, both spiritually and as a homeschooling mom. While I was intensely praying for such a friend, I signed up for a bible study through my church — mainly just to meet with women outside the seminary community. I showed up at the first night of bible study and casually mentioned that I homeschool my children. During a break, the facilitator of the study let me know that she was also homeschooling her kids. Her twins were in 2nd grade at the time and third child (son) was the same age as Jonah! I knew the moment she told me that she homeschooled as well that God had sent me a friend. She has blessed me in many ways.
God continues to show me on a regular basis that I am not alone in the homeschooling process. There are real people all around me that are homeschooling as well, or that have been homeschooled (and remember homeschool as a positive experience). When I attended a Living Proof Live conference last summer, I ran into some other women from my church and from the seminary. (Among a group of 4000+ women). Among the women was a wife from this seminary who is also currently homeschooling! Isn’t God good at throwing people into my path!?!
During our second year here at the seminary, I again attended a brunch for the women on campus. During the brunch, we were given some time to form groups of 3-4 with the women around us and to spend some time getting to know each other. In talking with the other two women in my group, I learned that one of the women was homeschooled for most of her education. And she would highly recommend it!
And then my friend …the one who facilitated the bible study…casually mentioned a homeschool day at the YMCA…which, as my faithful readers know, has been a wonderful energy outlet for Jonah and a source of homeschool encouragement for me.
And again, over the winter, a homeschooling family with a son Jonah’s age, a daughter close to Abby’s age and 2 other children moved into the building right next to us. How awesome is that!
So, even when my fears and insecurities keep me from reaching out for the resources that I know are probably right around me, God still provides. In situations where I least expect it, he throws someone right at me who is able to encourage me, or instruct me, or simply understand me.