Social media is way, way, WAY outside my comfort zone. Sometimes I start to think about my “online presence”, which by any standard is small, and I wonder: how do I have an online presence at all! Privacy loving, socially awkward little me.
When I first started blogging, the thought of opening up my thoughts and words to the world was terrifying. Convincing myself that no more than a handful of people were likely to ever actually read my words allowed me to begin.
Even now, at least 8 out of 10 times, clicking that little “publish” button on a new post requires a battle within my heart and mind. I worry that my words will be misunderstood, or cause offense, or allow others to judge me. And I worry that I’m just making a fool of myself, talking to dead space while the crickets chirp. I feel like I’m back in high school trying to be cool but believing I’m really just the class joke.
And yet I blog.
Because although I’ve spent much of my life building walls around myself, I still crave relationship. As much as I value privacy, I still have a strong need to be known. And although interacting on the internet feels like etching my words in stone for the future to haunt me with, I love crafting words into stories.
So I chase the difficult, step into the uncomfortable, and attempt to continue on.
What do you continue doing, even though it is outside your comfort zone?